Bliss

Ever notice how the minute you figure out exactly what you want, enough to be able to verbalize it, the universe provides?

I thought all I wanted was to work as much as possible as an actress. This could make me happy. To stay busy. Simple. However, I've been doing just that lately, staying busy. I've been shooting mainly commercials, and industrials, working all the time. Why is it then, that I've been completely depressed, unsatisfied, empty. I've given the topic a lot of thought in the past few weeks and I came to the conclusion that I must refine my specifications. No longer is it enough to just "work," I've been there and done that now. I sat down with my husband and hashed it out, out loud this time. I wrote it down to solidify my requirements.

-I, not only want to work, I want to create. I want to be a part of a collaboration of which I can be proud. I want to belong to a family of peers that I respect and that respect me. I want to feel comfortable when I go to work, and not like a piece of set dressing. I would like to actually get to know the crew with whom I'm working. I hate doing commercials! Hum, what else? I want to do work that I can actually put on my resume. So on and so forth...

Amazingly enough, the week after I made these realizations and put them out into the universe, I got cast in a short film that granted all my wishes. The title of the film is "Bliss." I had a rehearsal last night and the title of the film, coincidentally, describes the feeling I had. I'm so happy to report that although we only shoot for one day, this is exactly the kind of project I was hoping for and would like to spend the rest of my career doing. I'm shooting tonight, and then it will be over, for now anyway. I just think that the timing is incredible. Sometimes things just come to you when you need them. Thanks world, I really needed this.

Since I'm talking about the universe today, I figured I would help you all navigate it. I bought my gps about a year and a half ago and I highly recommend it to anyone out there looking to pursue a career in LA. I would be seriously lost without it. LA is a big scary place and sometimes mapquest just isn't enough. It's nice to be able to ask your gps for directions to the nearest coffee shop, parking garage, or gas station. I would not try to do the whole LA thing without it!